Cycle number 2.

I am conscious that I have not been on here for a while and thought I ought to update you all.

Don't worry I'm fine, in fact I have spent the last month enjoying myself and avoiding all things IVF. I've been whisked away to London by my hubby for our wedding anniversary and just enjoying not thinking or doing IVF for a month. I think its good to not let infertility rule your life and I have to say this month off has done me the world of good and I am now looking forward to getting myself and my body in ship shape order in time for the next cycle. So as of today it is back on the healthy wagon in preparation for cycle number 2, which I think will be towards the end of November/beginning of December.

So I will update you when I know more......

BFN

Its offical. I got my negative Beta results yesterday. Boo!!!

Oh well, onwards and upwards. IVF cycle 2 to start at some point in October. I will update you when I know more. xxx

PUPO!

Ok so I am now pregnant until proven otherwise! I so hope it is not proven otherwise.

We ended up with 7 high grade embryos and one that was ok. So we decided to implant the best one, freeze the other 6 for future use and discard the one that was only ok.

The procedure was fine, just a little uncomfortable and only took around 20 minutes to do. It was however the most overwhelming thing I have ever been through. I had a picture of the embryo on the screen in front of me and I also could see the fluid go into me on the scanner screen and it was like I was in a dream. A very good dream, but still a dream.

And then the waiting began...........

From Tuesday last week and up until the transfer on Thursday I have sore nipples and felt like I was about to get me period. The pain was so bad on Thursday night that it woke me in the night. However when I woke up on Friday it had gone and has not come back so I am hoping that this is a good sign.

Speaking of signs, I am trying to spot them everywhere and it is driving me mad. I know I should be looking on the internet for symptoms but I couldn't help it! It didn't help, in fact it has made it worse and now I am even more confused. It seems there are a whole host of things that could be a pregnancy symptom but they could also be side effects of the hormones that I am still taking and even signs of getting my period.

So if anyone is interested and would like to know these are the symptoms' that I have been getting:

Sore throat

Stuffy nose

Excess saliva

Slight pinching pains in my tummy

Feeling dizzy

But please note that there are also a whole lot more that I have not been getting, so who knows!

So for now I will go away and try not to try myself insane. More soon xxx

Eleven

I have just been informed that we have 11 eggs allocated to us! Yippee!!

The eggs and sperm are now being introduced to each other and then left overnight to do their business! I am told that they would expect around 65% to fertilise but this is just guesswork.

They will call me in the morning to inform me how many have fertilised, I am so excited and I am struggling to write this post as my hands are shaking!

Hopefully we will have more good news in the morning and I will update you then xxx

My situation so far.

I was the first of all my friends to decide to have a baby but now 5 years later I am the only one without one.

After 18 months of nothing and being told by my doctor to give it time, I decided enough was enough and went to see a different doctor. I just suddenly felt that something was not right. I had started to get hot flushes, night sweats. I was lucky to get a period every 6 months. I gained weight and no matter how little I ate or how much I exercised I couldn't get it off. My new doctor actually listened to me when I explained why I was worried and he too agreed that this was not normal. He ordered a blood test but hinted that it sounded like I had polycystic ovaries, which was treatable. I went home happy that someone was taking me seriously and with some PCOS leaflets to read and feeling positive.

That positivity did not last long. My world came crashing down around me when I received the phone call with my blood test results. I was expecting PCOS to be confirmed and the doctor to prescribe some medication. I did not expect to be told that my ovaries were not working at all and my FSH levels were horrendously high.

I waited for an appointment with a specialist and after more tests etc it was confirmed that I had ovarian failure. This means that I had basically been through the menopause before I was 30 and I had no eggs of my own. I would never conceive naturally and genetically have my own child.

I was immediately put on HRT and I was told I would stay on this until I was in my fifties in order to reduce my menopausal symptoms. I was told IVF was my only option and I would also require egg donation as I had no eggs of my own to use. I was placed on the egg donation waiting list and told to expect a 2 to 3 year wait!

My husband was my rock through this time. I literally fell apart and it was hard for him as I was always the strong one in our relationship. He comforted me, cared for me and helped pick me up and carry on. I could not have done this if it was not for him being by my side supporting me every step of the way.

So we decided that we would keep busy and make the best of our lives (holidays, nights out, lots of shoes and handbags for me and cars and motorbikes for him!) whilst we waited and waited and waited.

I was finally matched to an egg donor in April this year and after a slight delay we started IVF on 1 July and I am currently just over half way through my first cycle now but more on that later.

Although I managed to find a wealth of information online and various forums etc about IVF, I have found it really hard to find anyone that has either ovarian failure or who is having egg donation. So after reading some other peoples blogs I though sod it, lets give it a go and even if it helps just one person like me, or anyone else for that matter, then it was worth it!